Here I am. Senior year in college. How did I get here and where has all the time gone? I still can't believe it. But it's real and now I have to actually make decisions on what to do with my life. It used to be that back in elementary school you had summer break and then knew you were moving on to the middle school. Then from middle school to high school and from high school to college. But what comes after college? I'm so used to being in school forever that it's incredibly scary not knowing waht to do once I graduate. There's no more school to just show up to. If anything I'll be the one IN FRONT of the class teaching, not the one sitting behind a desk, doodling and trying to pay attention. EEEK!!

So very very scared, but excited at the same time. This is the part of my life where I get to make decisions. I choose where I'll go, what I'll do, how I'll make something of myself. I guess I'm scared the most about the uncertainty because I'm so used to having everything planned out and knowing what's going to happen when. But the uncertainty and unlimited possibilities are exciting as well because my options are unlimited.

But on a more certain note, I know I'm going to get married to Mr. Michael Duffy, the greatest boy in the whole wide world. I love him so much and I can't put into words how much he means to me and how much I enjoy his company. I just wish I could see him more. It seems the longer we've been together, the less we see each other. When we first met, we spent every minute possible together. Now I'm lucky if I get to see him for 5 minutes a day. We both work opposite schedules and have classes at different times so we're never both free at the same time. One good thing about not seeing each other is that I appreciate him that much more and enjoy the time we can spend together. Oooh! I love my Sunshine SOOOO much!!

About the busyness. I'm in pro sem this semester, which is supposedly the most STRESSFUL semester EVER!! Yay! But so far I've had more free time this semester than I have in the past 3 years (including the summers). But that's about to change as soon as all these projects start to pile up and due dates rapidly creep up on me. But we have classes with the same people, so we can all work together and be stressed as a group. I'm excited because I FINALLY get to do what I wanted to do when I started my education here. Teach and work with children. After 3 years, finally some practical application and some ACTUAL CHILDREN!! Geez. I almost thought I didn't want to be a teacher, but now that I'm finally getting in the classroom aspect of teaching and working with kids, I'm getting a bit more excited. Hopefully things will go well and I'll finally learn how to be a teacher, and hopefully a good one.

I suppose that's enough babble for now. Haven't posted in quite awhile (haven't had the time) so I thought I'd update. Good luck to everyone with their senior year. It's soon time to enter "the real world" (not like I'm not there already ????) Anyway. Later all. Take care!!

September 7, 2005